TTC Wednesday Eve

It's the day before my first endocrinology appointment and of course that has me thinking about everything. And I've realized the following three things:

• it has been 36 months since my last positive pregnancy test
• 34 months since that pregnancy ended
• 11 months since I stopped taking birth control

And here we sit. 

It's kind of shriveled up what little optimism I had left, at least for today. My husband is just so convinced everything is going to work out. Because today I'm convinced it won't.