TTC Wednesday

I was obviously feeling very dramatic last week and I may have gone a little off the deep end. That's the thing about infertility. It makes you freaking crazy. I think there is probably a correlation between amount of time TTC and how crazy you go too. I should make a graph... 
Either way, I'm sorry anyone who reads this gets to deal with my crazy. 
Four years is a long time, even if we took some breaks in between, and sometimes it's overwhelming. It beats down on you. I don't think I think about anything as much as I think about how much I want this. Throw in charting, temping, testing and the whole thing is a wash. I've invested so much time, so much money, so much heartache into this. 
This is hopefully my last unmedicated cycle. If everything lines up right I might be able to start Clomid next cycle. It depends on a couple things. Namely, my cycle being consistent (which is basically never but maybe it will be nice to me) and what the doctor says. I have an MRI scheduled for mid October so they may recommend waiting until November just to be safe.
I also found this article through Generations of Hope yesterday. Infertility from the perspective of the father, its a really good read and I highly recommend it.